‘Emotional’ music?
Its odd how songs can fill you with emotions of the past. The memories dont even come to mind, because most of the time I dont know what I associate with this song, theres just this strange welling of emotion there for no reason apparent to my knowledge. The whole death cab CD brings back the feelings of summer and the mood I was constantly in, its not like the mood is shoved abruptly upon me, its just there, not even in my brain but floating around me. It kind of makes me yearn for the past, but if I went back sir Im sure it would be a nightmare. To be able to remember the feelings I used to have is kind of pleasant.
This makes me think of behind-thoughts. Sometimes I know I’m thinking of something but I dont know what it is, sometimes it even feels like my minds participating in some amazingly genious thinking pattern but it wont reveal it. Frustration at its maximum. Morning thoughts are the best. Theres a weird hazy bit of sleep that you can be in where everything makes sense no matter how ridiculous, one morning I was thoroughly convinced I had to create a balanced formula equation with CO2 and H20 incorporated before I could let myself have a shower. I lay there half asleep trying with all my sleep rusted brain caught earnestly battering itself up over this silly problem, ten minutes passed, and I realized that although I would be expelling CO2 and bathing in H2O, it hardly had anything to do with my sleep to cleanliness ratio
Another time I walked in late into the night, and my little sister bolted upright and said quite loudly for someone so deep in sleep “I’ve seen you so many times!” I was so baffled so I got her to repeat it, asking “How many times?” to which she answered “I dont know…I dont know….” and she drifted back to her incogitative state.
I’m determined to have a full length conversation with someone whos half asleep. Who knows, maybe they can tell me of some deadly useful information. Is ones mind unprotected, vulnerable, when asleep? Could they betray themselves truly? I often wonder why people always want to know what the people dearest to them have kept hidden. Its all purely for their own benefit, and the funny thing is it usually ends up ruining them. Everyone has secrets which may or may not be considered ‘large’. It depends who you tell, really.
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