Depression at its finest
Its a strange thing.
When in the state of depression it feels like theres a huge mass of negative energy weighing down the emotions and it can’t be lifted off no matter what you do. In a way I think people over exaggerate it. They fill themselves up with self-pity and don’t give ROOM for a better state of mind. Maybe they like basking in their hard feelings. I dont think someone should have to take pills to be happy, but then, theres clinical depression. This affects 16% of the population atleast once in their lives, where there are twice as many females as males. Has anyone ever stopped to think about what makes a person depressed? Is it the things happening around them? The state of the world, their family life, relationships…Or is it really just a chemical imbalance.
The Great Depression was caused by the fall of the stock market; banks were forced into insolvency and millions lost their jobs. Is this decade labelled as such because the people of the time fell into states of depression or because the economy suffered? I wonder if any of those folks, if brought into todays society could’ve been diagnosed with ‘clinical depression.’
Can one actually be ‘born’ with depression, when the world has not yet left even an insignificant mark on mind or life in general?
Van gogh was believed to have suffered from depression, in several letters to Theo van Gogh he tells of his helpless state, he described his feeling as such:
“But I am so angry with myself now because I cannot do what I should like to do, and at such a moment one feels as if one were lying bound hand and foot a the bottom of a deep, dark well, utterly helpless.”
But what was this brought on by? He also goes on to say that bathing helped to ease his mind and sort of rid of his melancholy mood atleast temporarily. His letters show that it was reoccurring, but he tried his best to fend it off, sometimes to no avail.
“Now I have recovered enough so that I got up again last night and rummaged around, straightening things. When the model came of her own accord this morning, though I only half expected her, I put her into the right pose with Mauve’s help and tried to draw a little; but I could not do it, and I felt miserable and weak the whole evening. But if I rest a few more days, it will be over, and I need not be afraid of its coming back soon if I am careful.”
How does one be “careful’? How did Van Gogh fend it off, or avoid it? His committing suicide shows that his mind gave way to “the melancholy that despairs numbly and in distress.”
There will always be depression, but theres no reason to have it in such large numbers of people. Theres even a type of race for it if I may, and that would be the “Emos” of our time, who are infact not even depressed. They force themselves into artificial depression to be ‘different’ or seek attention which they claim to avoid at all costs. Forcing oneself into depression is just about the dumbest thing to do for attention, aside for attempting suicide. The ‘emos’ aren’t even committed enough to try and kill themselves properly.
Being happy or sad shouldn’t take energy, it should come naturally. Both emotions are healthy to have, and the former cannot be had in excess, where the latter can, so friggin bask in happiness. You’ll most likely live longer.
Yeah, that’s funny how emos try to emulate depression. I think they see themselves as oppressed artists, and that their creative genius is unrecognized by the world and they therefore need to committ ‘parasuicide.’ Tools.